Feed Me!

I hate the concept of food. I hate that we need it to live. I hate that some people can get it whenever they want, and others can't. I hate that there are starving people in the world. And starving animals too. I hate that when we are depressed, stressed, happy, sad, mad, pretty much any emotion, that we turn to it. Take a look at your social life. How often do you meet up with friends and family and food is always there. You meet up with friends at a restaurant, and even when you go to the movies, people always get popcorn and candy. There is no wonder why we are overweight. I never once for a second wonder why I weigh as much as I do. I just ate Burger King, so yeah, no shock there. Honestly, I'm surprised that I don't weigh more. Clearly I have some sort of metabolism going on. I feel bad when I eat to much. Here I am stuffing myself when there are homeless people who have to go without dinner. Remember when you wouldn't eat something and your parents would say something like... 'There's starving people in China.' Or Africa or wherever.

So what can we do about it? Clearly not going to Burger King isn't going to help the hungry homeless people. But it will help me lose weight and save money so I don't become homeless. The news says that if you see a homeless person that you aren't suppose to give them money, that you are suppose to call the Rescue Mission and they will give you coupons or something to give to the homeless that will allow them to a free bed and meal.

OK, so that kind of takes care of the homeless, but what about the rest of us. What are we going to do with all this overeating? Even our kids and pets are getting fat. I think the best answer is to get exercise, eat smaller portions, and eat more healthier foods. That last one is going to be hard for me because I don't like veggies. I'll eat salads, but only if it has meat and cheese on it. And to be honest, mostly I just eat the meat and cheese. But I did get Apple Fries from BK tonight. Yum, yum. A great substitute for greasy fries.

It's a new year, so lets all make a promise to ourselves that we will start taking care of ourselves. Eating less, means spending less money on food, which means a fatter bank account, which means less stress about money. More exercise, which means losing weight, which lowers your risk of cancer and diseases, which means a happier you.

So simple, and yet, so hard.

Confessions of Me

At the age of 28 I feel like I have no idea who I am. Shouldn't I know this by now? So to help me out I am making a list and am sharing it with you so that maybe you can get to know me a little better. I feel like people judge me a lot about my choices of things and I don't like that. Everyone is different and we need to accept people for who they are. I try not to judge anyone and if I ever have, I'm sorry.
So here I am...

• I find Miley Cyrus interesting. I like some of her songs and in moderation, the show Hannah Montana. I'm looking forward to reading her tell all book when she's 30 and no longer has a career due to drugs or whatever. (just kidding, hopefully she won't turn into another Lindsay Lohan).
• I never have (and possibly never will) like to go bar hopping, getting drunk, and having creepy guys hit on me. I'm content just staying at home reading a book (or 6), watching a movie, listening to music, or playing on Facebook. A lot of people call me boring because of this and while that might be true, it's what makes me happy.
• I don't need a fancy cell phone. I don't understand why everyone feels the need to get a Blackberry, iphone (which is pretty cool), Droid, or some other device. I agree that it does come in handy to be able to do a bunch of stuff on the phone (like turn on your Christmas lights), but I just need something that will make calls and send texts. Once again, people give me crap because I've had the same phone for like 3 years now while everyone is upgrading. I will keep my simple little phone until it no longer works. As long as it works, there's no reason to get a new one.
• I'm still undecided about marriage. And kids. I'm all for living with a guy I love and who loves me, but can't actually picture the white dress, walking down the aisle and all that fluffy wedding stuff. As far as kids go, I like sleep to much and the only reason I would have one is so that someone can take care of me when I'm old and crazy.
• While it might not seem like it, I do care about fashion. I just try not to spend a lot of money on clothes because I'm always spilling something on them or getting holes in them.
• I have never done drugs, never smoked a cigarette, and have no intention of ever doing so.
• I don't have any tattoos or piercing. I'd probably get a tattoo, but I am so indecisive that I have no idea what I would get. And then after I got it, I'd probably forget about it because I'd get it in the "slut spot" because I think they look good there. Tattoos on guys are only hot if they have one around the bicep. And it's nothing dirty like a naked woman or something stupid like having Bugs Bunny on your arm.
• Hair is gross! It should only ever been on the head and eyebrows. In a perfect world, I'd be with a guy who doesn't have a hairy chest or back. Ick.
• I hate most vegetables. Peas, corn, mushrooms, etc. But like most fruits. Is that weird?
• I got rid of cable and thought that I'd miss it, but I actually not having cable. Its a lot easier to get to bed at a decent time when you aren't distracted by the shopping channel. And you get a lot more reading done.
• I'm way to addicted to Facebook. It took me forever to get on there, and now I can't ever stay off it.
• I cuss like a sailor, but hate hearing foul language from other people and reading it in books. I don't quite understand that.
• While I bitch about my job alot, I really don't mind it. I've been unemployed and it sucked, so I will happily work at a call center. I just wish our customers were a little nicer.
• I'm trying to stop eating fast food and drinking soda and am doing a horrible job at it.
• I believe that I've only been in love twice. Sad thing is, neither one of those guys felt that way about me.
• I like Malibu Coconut Rum. Yeah it's sugary and takes a bunch of shots to get you tipsy, but I like it.
• I hate talking on the phone. I spend all day at work talking on the phone, so if you want to get in contact with me, send me a text. If you call (unless you are a family member) there's a 95% chance I won't answer.
• I like to organize things. I believe that your life is a bit easier when your place is clean and you know where everything is.
• If I had to choose between music, movies, or books, I'd choose music. You can listen to a good song over and over again and always get a different feeling for it.
• Someday I would like to get a little white Westie dog and name it Cesar.
• I love my Nintendo DS. It provides hours of entertainment.
• Sorry guys, but you are idiots. Girls are not that complicated. If you like us, tell us. If you don't, tell us. Treat us like we are the best thing that ever happened to you.
• Yes, I like the Cleveland Browns because Brady Quinn is hot.
• Netflix and Redbox are two of the greatest things invented.
• I hate baseball! I'll go to a game, but will not watch it on TV. Its just so boring.
• I want to go to Maine. Growing up I loved the L.L. Bean catalog and they are located there.
• I'm not as moody and depressed as everyone seems to think I am.
• I have a hard time trusting people. I think the only person I really trust is my friend Rachael.
• I wish that my sister and I were closer.
• I'm not against make up. I just don't know how to use it.
• I wish I had brown eyes. Girls with brown eyes are sexy.
• I don't care who the artist is, if the song makes me want to dance, it's a good song.
• Death Cab For Cutie is my favorite band. Their music can make me happy and sad at the same time.
• I'm perfectly happy here in Boise.
• I love dark chocolate.
• I'm not anti-fun. We just don't get along.
• I love to sing even though I am horrible at it.
• My favorite show right now is The Big Bang Theory.
• I usually fall for the geeky guys. The cute geeky guys.
• I take showers at night because I sleep better.
• I love sleep even though I don't get it very often. The nightmares keep me awake.
• I'm scared of pretty much everything.
• I hate Valentine's Day. Always have and probably always will.
• If I ever do get married, it's going to be on October 12th. Only because I like the month of October and the number 12.
• I love that I was born on the 12th day of the 12th month of the year. Makes it easier to remember.
• Fear of failure makes it hard for me to move on in life.
• I don't have much faith in myself, so when someone says that they believe in me or encourage me to do something, it feels strange.
• I love gossip magazines, but think they are a waste of money.
• I love Chap stick.
• I love randomness. The more random, the better.
• My favorite dish is turkey, mashed potatoes, and gravy.

I'm sure there is more, but this is really all that I can think of right now. So take me for who I am and don't judge.

Not A Love Story

I just saw the movie (500) Days of Summer because it's my sister's new favorite movie. I liked it, but kind of had mixed feelings. I've had my heart broken and mended this year, so I could feel how Tom in the movie felt when he fell in love with Summer (a girl, not the season). When the film starts, the narrator hints that it's not a love story, but it is, sort of. Just kind of a sad one. Tom falls in love with Summer and when she finds out that he likes her, she tells him that she doesn't believe in love and doesn't want to be any one's girlfriend. But then she kisses him in the copy room and they start hanging out a lot and have sex, all the things that couples do, but then they kind of break up. But can you really break up with someone who you claim you weren't dating in the first place? I didn't really like the Summer character. I don't really like anyone who's going to break the heart of someone who's nice and deserves happiness. And if that wasn't bad enough, she does it again by getting married. I suppose you can be anti-love and then find it. But that's got to be a great big stab in the heart to find out that within a year of things ending between the two of you that the person you thought was 'the one', the person who couldn't find love with you somehow managed to find it with someone else. Of course, everyone that you date can't always be 'the one', but the search for them can be painful. I understand why people date, because we want to feel love and we don't want to be alone, but that process can be heartbreaking. I'm currently dating someone and sometimes I can feel how sad and heartbroken I would be if we ever broke up, because I really like him. But he's young and I know that it isn't very likely that someone will stay with someone they met when they were twenty, so I fear that we will break up, and I will be sad and a mess. But, hey, life is unpredictable. If you don't fallow your heart you will never meet new people or learn new things.

The Heart Breaker In Me

My friend Al had been pretty smitten with me for a while. I've known him for about 5 years and there was a time about 2 or 3 years ago when I was pretty smitten with him too, of course at that time, he didn't share the same feelings. That didn't start to really happen until after I had gotten over him. I'm not sure how I managed to get over him, and wish I had taken notes so I could do the same thing to get over the guy I currently am smitten with. Anyway, he was in love with me. I knew this. He told me so whenever he would get drunk and call me. I enjoy knowing that there is someone out there who loves me and thinks about me all the time. Sometime after I graduated high school and entered the real world I got this horrible idea in my head that no one loves me. Family and friends don't count because I know that they do, but as far as guys go, seeing as how I've spent to much time being single, I just assumed that no guy loved me and wanted to share their life with me. But Al did. And if he hadn't been legally still married (even though his wife has been cheating on him for the whole time I've known him), and a little better in bed (don't judge me), I might have agreed to have relationship with him. Oh yeah, there was another thing stopping me- I didn't feel anything other than friendship for him. You can't be in a relationship without loving the person you are dating. If only I had been in love with him like I was before, then I never would've gotten myself into this mess.

About 2 weeks ago he sent me a text asking me why he and I couldn't just be together, and there is no way to turn someone day (but if you know of one, please let me know), so I was honest with him. Told him that I don't have the same feelings for him that he does for me, that I love him as a friend and hope that we are always friends and that I hope he finds a girl who will make him happy. I wouldn't make him happy. I knew this answer would hurt him, but surely it would hurt less than having me give him a lame answer like 'I don't know' and keep making him think that something would ever happen between us. Right? Apparently not, because now he's not talking to me. He was one of my best friends and I always enjoyed talking to him. And now he won't talk to me. And that makes me sad and really hurts. Did I lose a friend forever because I was honest? I wish the guy I liked was honest with me, because every time I ask him why we aren't together he gives me the lame "I don't know" answer, and I hate that, so I didn't want to do the same for Al. Maybe I should have. Maybe he would still be talking to me.

I need some help here guys, what can I do? Everyone that I've talk to about this told me that clearly he doesn't respect our friendship if he's just going to let it end over something like this. When he rejected me a few years ago, I still wanted to stay friends with him. Why can't he do the same?

And now I got a guy at work who likes me, and I do not feel the same way, how do I let him down gently so I don't prevent him from not talking to me anymore? I don't want to be a heart breaker, because I know how it feels to get your heart broken by someone and it is not fun.

Help!

What's My Age Again?

So, it's St. Patricks Day and while everyone and their grandma is out drinking, partying, having fun, and doing stupid things, I'm at home writing this blog and watching repeats of The Real Housewives of New York. I've had two invites to go do something, but I just feel so sleepy and sluggish. I'm 27, I shouldn't be feeling this way. Right? So what's wrong with me? I gave up fast food and soda (going on 3 weeks now) and I thought that I'd have more energy, but really, I don't. I actually don't even feel like I've lost any weight, feel like I've gained some. Soda and fast food are bad for you, or so they say, stop consuming them and you will feel awesome. LIES!!!! Not that I felt all that great when I was consuming them, but at least the sugar in the soda gave me some energy.
Now, obviously the smart answer is to start exercising. I have nothing against exercise. Once I actually start doing it, it's OK, but its the getting started part that is hard. I hate my work out clothes. I know, that's a lame excuse, but they aren't that comfy. I'd do some yoga but that relaxes me and makes me even more sleepy. No one wants to date a fat girl. Except for fat guys.
I just don't like where I am this place in my life. All my friends are out there getting married, having kids, or if they are single, they are going out and having fun, and I'm sitting at home reading and wishing I had what others have.
And before you say it, I know that I need to figure out what I'm unhappy with in my life and fix it. Way easier said then done. But like my friend E said, we are young and have the power to change our lives. Its not like any life changes right now would affect anyone. I don't have a hubby or kids that would get in the way. It's just me. 27 year old me who feels like she's 50 and has the mind of an 18 year old. No wonder I'm such a mess. My brain and body can't focus on what age it's suppose to be.

The Bruise

Monday when I was at my friend L.'s house, I was doing my thing in the restroom and looked down at this giant bruise that I have on my thigh and I thought up this crazy metaphor that a bruise is like a broken heart. A bruise and a broken heart both hurt. But with time, the bruise will fade away and the broken heart will heal. So then you are left with full heart and a prettier looking thigh.

The reason why I feel like this metaphor kind of works for me right now is because the bruise came from when I was at the house of the guy who I liked. I had met him through some friends and one night when I got off work we and some of my co-workers went to IHOP for breakfast. Then I went back to his place to see where he lived and see his dog. When he was giving me the tour I ran into either his bed or dresser and bruised up my leg. Ouchie. A week later, the bruise is still there and he had deleted me from his Facebook.

Still not sure what caused him to delete me, maybe I never will. My friend told me that it might not have been my fault, or maybe it was. We might never know. Guys are weird like that. One day you think everything is fine, then next, they have deleted you. But it still hurts. I pretty much only knew the guy like maybe 2 weeks and out of no where, he decides that he doesn't want to have any contact with me. That hurt a lot more than the bruise did.

But, like the bruise, I believe that the hurt will go away and I will heal. Maybe this little bruise/broken heart theory is a load of crap, but it works for me. I know that there will be more bruises and broken hearts, but someday, I will find someone who will make my bruises feel better and keep my heart whole.

He's Still Not That Into You (Or Me)

I saw the movie He's Just Not That Into You tonight and have the same mixed feelings for it as I did the book. As your friend, I am going to save you $9.50 and tell you about the film. If at the end of this review you still want to spend that much on this film, then go for it, but I personally advise that you just wait until it comes out on DVD. I'm not saying that it's a bad film, but if you are seeing it for the same reason I did, to try and get some sort of insight into guys, it would just be cheaper to wait until it hits the $2 theater. But if you are just going for entertainment value and because you think that Jennifer Aniston and Ben Affleck are hot, then you should still wait until it comes to the $2 theater, because no one should be spending nearly $10 on a movie, no matter how good or bad it is.

First there's Gigi who is pretty much like every single girl out there, tired of being single and wanting to find Mr. Right. She's the girl who waits by the phone waiting for the guy to call like he said he would, but we all know that he never is, because guys never call. Even when they are dating you. One night she has a date with Conor who she thinks is way into her, but Conor is way into his friend (and previous sex buddy until she stopped having sex with him). So after this date Gigi is waiting for Conor to call and one night decides that she's just going to go to the bar that he hangs out at, where his buddy Alex works. Gigi goes to the bar and lets it slip that she's looking for Conor because she thought that he liked her and such. Alex informs her that Conor is not into her, that if he was then he would've called already. Alex and Gigi become friends and throughout the whole movie he is giving her guy advice. After a while it dawns on Gigi that maybe Alex is into her, so she tries to kiss him at a party he invited her to and gets denied. Ouch. So she forgets about and keeps going on dates with other guys. Meanwhile, Alex (the player type guy in this story) realizes that he's really into Gigi. Which just proves that even a player can fall in love sooner or later. They get together, which is really cute.

Then there's Beth and Neil who have been dating for over 7 years and she's wanting to get married, but he, like most guys, won't ask her. Comes up with this story about how if they are so happy with the way things are now, why do they have to make it official by getting married. But Beth really wants to be married, so even though she loves Neil, she breaks up with him because he hasn't married her yet and doesn't show any signs of wanting to. Of course they both realize how much the love each other and want to be with each other and end up getting back together, and end up getting married. I'm guessing that the lesson in this story was that if a guy really loves you and wants to be with you, then he will do whatever it takes to make sure that you are happy, even if it means marrying you.

Next we have Janine and Ben, the married couple. Janine is super crazy, so it's no surprise when Ben cheats on her with Ann. Remember her? She's the girl who's playing Conor. So Ben and Ann start fooling around together while Janine freaks out about everything and eventually Ben confesses that he had an affair. At first she tries to act like nothing happened, but soon goes even more crazy and kicks him out. Ann dumps him when she gets the impression that he will never leave his wife for her. Ben confesses at one point in the movie that he reason he got married is because Janine said that if they didn't get married than she would break up with him, so basically he got married when he didn't really want to. So guys, make sure if you are getting married its because you love the girl and want to be with her for the rest of your life. And if you are married, don't cheat. Nothing good ever comes from cheating.

Now let's talk about Conor. Conor is in love with Ann, and picks the moment right after she and Ben broke up (keep in mind that he didn't even know about Ben), to tell her that he loves her and wants to be with her. Being heartbroken by Ben, Ann says that she feels the same way and they start dating. It's not until he starts talking about buying a house that he hopes one day she will move into with him that she freaks out a bit and confesses that she does not have romantic feeling for him. So they are over. At the end of the movie he meets Mary who he's talked to on the phone a few times because she's friends with Ann, and the two of them fall in love.

So the whole -if he's not calling you, sleeping with you, dating you, etc- thing, but why do guys make us think that they are into us when they really aren't. Like getting a girl's # and saying that he'll call when he really won't? That's just mean. And why should we keep pressuring men to marry us when they aren't ready? Being married shouldn't change anything, but it always seems to, and maybe they just don't want to take the chance of things changing and the two of your getting a divorce.

Basically, here's the bottom line. Guys: if you are interested in a girl, let her know. If you want to marry her, then marry her. If you aren't interested in her, don't make her believe that you are. And don't be a player either. Trust me, I've dealt with one. Texting me all the time making me believe that he wanted to date, a few sleepovers, then what does he do? Goes off and gets a girlfriend. He made me believe that he was into me, but he really wasn't, and that hurts. And if you are with a girl and don't want to marry her, then don't. Don't even be with her. Because for some reason, every girl wants to get married. It's their way to showing the world that someone loves them and will love them every day for the rest of their life. Girls: Don't get involved with married guys, and if there is a guy friend who is smitten with you, don't play him. Don't hook up with him because you are lonely. I'm pretty sure guys have feeling too. And don't pressure the guy into marrying you. Just because he hasn't asked you yet, doesn't mean that he never will. If it's so important, then go ask him to marry you. Apparently girls do that now.

It's a tough world out there, and all any of us want is to be with someone who loves us and will treat us right. You have to work at love, but it shouldn't feel like you are working at it. For all you couples out there, be glad that you have found someone and hopefully that someone is Mr./Mrs. Right. For all you single people out there, I believe that love will find you when you stop looking for it. Look at Gigi and Alex. They weren't expecting anything from each other, and ended up being perfect for each other. I believe that in the end, we will all end up happy with someone.

He's Just Not That Into You (Or Me)

Unless you've been living in a hole, you've probably heard of the book He's Just Not That Into You, where a guy named Greg tells you all the signs of a guy who isn't into you, and if you are dating this guy, then you need to dump him.
I've recently (and currently) have dealt with a guy who is giving me mixed signals on if he's 'into me', so that's why I picked up this book. I had read it a few years ago when it first came out, but they are turning it into a movie, so I wanted to refresh my memory and hope that maybe it will get me to stop thinking about this guy who, according to the book, isn't into me.
Here's some notes that I took from the book and Greg's signs that a guy isn't into you. I color coded them so the red are quotes from the book, the blue are my thoughts on those quotes, and the black is the chapter titles.
If a guy really likes you, there is nothing that's going to get in his way.
1.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's N0t Asking You Out. (Because if he likes you, he will ask you out.) OK, this makes sense. If a guy likes you than he's be wanting to get to know you better, grab a cup of coffee, going out to dinner, whatever it is that people do on first dates. Guys don't mind messing up a friendship if it could lead to sex whether it be a 'fuck buddy' situation or a meaningful romance. Well, that's good to know. Best friend Rob would rather get laid by you instead of caring about your friendship together. Let's make up a rule that we do sleep with our friends. Shouldn't they be more important than sex? Men like to chase and you have to let them chase you. I asked some guys about this one, and they disagree. Guys like it when girls ask them out, they say that it takes off the pressure of having to ask a girl out. So, don't assume that just because you asked a guy out that things aren't going to work for the two of you.
2.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's Not Calling You (Men know how to use the phone.) Of course you want a guy who's going to call you, but there are some people who just don't like talking on the phone, I'm one of them. So if he's texting you, does that mean he doesn't like you? It's the year 2009, where I think texting is the new calling. But yes, having a guy call you up every so often is nice. So guys, if you are into a girl and are just texting her, give her a call once or twice a week. 100% of men polled said they've never been to busy to call a woman they were really into.
3.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's Not Dating You ("Hanging out" is not dating.) Duh. I haven't really been on dates. Every guy I've dated I was always friends with first, so I don't really know how to tell the difference between hanging out and dating. Would be watching at movie at home with a guy be considered "hanging out"? Do you actually have to go to the movies to have it be considered ''dating"? If this is the case, than hanging out is cheaper than dating. 100% of guys polled said "a fear of intimacy" has never stopped them from getting into a relationship.
4.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's Not Having Sex With You (When men like you, they want to touch you, always) True. But there's always those players out there who will have sex with you and make you think that they are into you, when really, they aren't. But yeah, if you are dating a guy and he doesn't want to have sex with you, then there's something wrong. Unless he's religious and is saving sex for marriage. If a man isn't trying to undress you, he's not into you. Once again, this kind of applies to if you are dating the guy. There's a guy who I know is into me (and I wish I was into him, then I wouldn't have needed to read this book) and he's not spending his time trying to get me naked. It's called respect. I don't want every guy who likes me to try to get me in my underwear.
5.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's Having Sex With Someone Else (There's never going to be a good excuse for cheating.) I think we can just leave it at that. No explanation needed.
6.) He's Just Not That Into You If He Only Wants To See You When He's Drunk (If he likes you, he'll want to see you when his judgement isn't impaired.) Good point. You can't have a relationship with someone who's always drunk. Drunk people are only fun for a few hours, then they just get annoying. 100% of men polled said they have never vomited in the bed of a woman they were really into. Does that mean they have vomited in the beds of the women they weren't really into?
7.) He's Just Not That Into You If He Doesn't Want To Marry You (Love cures commitment-phobia.) This one kind of made me mad. I'm friends with a couple who have been dating for like 5 or something years and they aren't married yet. According to Greg this guy just isn't into this girl who he lives with and spends lots of time with and are just super cute together. Of course she's ready to get married, and he's not, but I don't think that means that they won't ever get married, they are both still young and no one has ever created a time limit on how long you have to date someone before you have to marry them. Marriage is a scary thing, and so many of them end bad, that as of right now (because you should all listen to the single girl) I don't even know if I want to get married. Of course, that could all change when I find a guy who I like who is 'into me'. 100% of the guys polled said they would have no problem marrying a woman who they were positive was the love of their life. OK, but just how long did it take for these guys who actually marry this woman?
8.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's Breaking Up With You (Duh) ("I don't want to go out with you" means just that) 100% of men polled said that when they broke up with someone, it always meant that they didn't want to go out with them anymore. I thought this was pretty true, until one of my ex's kept telling me he missed me and stuff. Of course, it wasn't the ex that I would actually get back together with. There's a guy out there who's going to be really happy that you didn't get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend.
9.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's Disappeared On You (Sometimes you have to get closure all by yourself.) That's just mean. Geez guys, have the guts to actually tell the girl that you don't like her anymore. In a nice way off course. No answer is your answer. 100% of men polled who had "disappeared" on a woman said that at the time they were completely aware of what a horrible thing they were doing, and no woman calling them up and talking to them would have changed that.
10.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's Married (and other variations of being unavailable) (If you're not able to love freely, its not really love.) It sucks when you think you've met Mr. Right and he turns out to be married. But don't get involved with him, because in the end, either you or the wifey will have gotten hurt. And love shouldn't involve hurting people.
11.) He's Just Not That Into You If He's A Selfish Jerk, A Bully, or A Really Big Freak (If you really love someone, you want to do things to make that person happy.) Basically what this chapter talked about is how weird guys can be, there was one guy who wouldn't sleep in the same bed as his girlfriend. So much for snuggling. Either he's just not into her, or he has issue, but I know that I would never want to be with a guy who didn't want to sleep in the same bed as me.
So there you go, 11 signs that this guy just isn't into you. Hopefully you either have or will find a guy who doesn't fall into any of these categories. Someone who will call you, sleep with you, marry you, love you, etc.

A Sign Or Just A Sign That I Think To Much?

It all started last Monday I think, maybe, when I had a dream that I was at my friend Lauresta's wedding as a bridesmaid. This is not such a crazy thing since I was in fact at her wedding as a bridesmaid like 5 years ago. What made me remember it, I have no idea, but as usual, there was a cute guy in the dream who liked me. And also, as usual, when I woke up I had no memory of what he looked like. Hate when that happens. Tall with dark hair like I like, but other than that, no idea.

Anyway, so I have that dream and all of a sudden all I can think of are weddings. Not my own of course because I'm single, so have no need to think of such a thing, but still. So for some crazy reason I go out and buy a bridal magazine. Don't know why, just had the urge to do so. Those things are pricey, damn! Of course I bought it for the articles. Duh. The next day I go to the library to pick up some books I had on hold and one of them is the novel Here Comes The Bride by Whitney Lyles. Wow. So I've got the memories of the wedding dream, the Modern Bride magazine, and now this novel about a girl getting married. I took that book to work so I could read it in between calls, and of course people on my team got the idea that I was either getting married or want to be married. I want a boyfriend first. Also, around this time, a lady at work get engaged. Everywhere I looked there was nothing but wedding things in sight.

Then today, my mom gives me a book that she saw at Costco and thought I might like. The book is Married In Seattle by Debbie Macomber. I asked her if she was hinting at something. No. She just knew that I liked that author, which I do, I just think its weird that that's the book they just happen to have on the shelf.

I asked my friend if this was a sign that I was going to be getting married soon or something. She said that yes, it is probably a sign that there will be a wedding in the future. Would that be the near future or the faraway future?

Maybe I'm pulling a Ted (watch How I Met Your Mother to understand that term) and am just over thinking this way to much. Or maybe it is a sign. Hey, my horoscope on my birthday said that in June there would be a family celebration. My sister's said the same thing.

A Semi-Love Story

My one whole reader told me that I needed to write on here, so here you go.

It occurred to me as I was changing my background to something in the Valentine's Day department that that seems like a strange thing to do since I'm probably going to spend this blog writing about the guy who keeps playing me, and how I'm a fool and keep letting him.

Here's a love story for you...

Once upon a time, last December, two people met during their training class for their new awesome jobs at a call center. The first week of work the girl, lets call her Lily, didn't really pay much attention to, lets call him Charlie. On the second week she decided that she wanted to date him. He was tall, had dark hair, and liked sports. So Lily got his number and gave him hers. They texted a bunch and both reviled that they liked each other. Now, in a normal world this would mean that the two started to date. But the Universe hates Lily, so this didn't happen. Instead, Charlie kept telling her that he wanted to take things slow because he was still hurt from his last break up. OK, Lily could understand this, sort of. But, couldn't you still date someone and take things slow? All of Lily's friends told her that he was playing her, and she started to believe them. Lily and Charlie texted a bunch outside of work and emailed each other while at work. He stayed at her place once, and she stayed at his place twice. Lily hoped that one day Charlie would see how awesome she was and officially start dating her. Then on New Years, things changed.

On New Years Charlie and some friends from work had gone to a bar and he ended up taking home an unattractive drunk girl. Lily hears about this and is heartbroken. Mr. Take It Slow wasn't taking it slow for other girls. He had played her. Or used her. Not really sure if there is a difference. Charlie starts dating the ugly drunk girl. Lily is crushed. How could a guy who she thought liked her and was a good guy play her and do this?

Get over him her friends told her. And she wanted to. Oh how she wanted to. But she couldn't. She didn't understand. This guy was an asshole who played her and broke her heart and yet she still thought about him all the time and wished that him and the ugly girl would break up and he'd want to date Lily.

Well, last week Lily got some good news. While she was trying hard to get over him, Charlie and the ugly girl broke up. Sweet! Then she hears from a coworker that Charlie wants to date her. Really? Having no self control she asks Charlie this. Yes, he does want to date her. She tells him that clearly he doesn't since he choose ugly girl over her. 'It was a mistake' he says. She asks him if he really wants to date her because he can see a future together, or because he just wants someone to have sex with. 'A future,' he tells her. This makes Lily hopeful. But wait. Does he really mean this or is he just saying this because its what he knows that she wants to hear. Is he trying to play her again or does he really mean this? And why is she giving him another chance. He broke her heart. Lily tries to talk to Charlie about this. He tells her once again that yes he does want to date her, but when she asks him why they aren't dating yet, he has no response. When she suggests that they go to a movie or something he says nothing. The joys of having conversations through texting.

So now what does she do? If he really wanted to date her, wouldn't he be wanting to hang out? Wouldn't he be at her house right now spending time with her? Isn't that want people do when they like each other? Spend time with each other?

Lily is tired of being single, and had hoped that this would be the guy to change that. She is just so scared about getting hurt again,and knows that she should just say no to him and not let him hurt her again, but she can't ignore the feelings that she has for him. Why is she smitten with a asshole?

And why does the cat keep peeing on bed?

The answer is clear. Lily needs to stay away from this guy. Its going to be hard, but hey, that's what you are all going to tell her anyway.

As for the cat...anyone want a cat?